I opened WordPress for the first time in ages, and I was looking forward to answering a prompt. I find it great to express myself and enjoy reading other bloggers’ answers. However, this prompt left me feeling uneasy.
You see, I’ve realized that I’m always stuck in the past, wishing things had gone differently, worried about the present, and yearning for a future I will probably never have. I seldom think about the future I want; whenever I do, it’s usually in the short term (six months to a year at most).
This prompt about the legacy I want to leave behind hits my soul, as it reminds me that I prefer not to think about the long-term future. But that’s an issue, so I’ll commit to thinking about and answering that in this article.
I want to be remembered as a person who tried.
I have tasted bitterness and pain, which made me very cynical for a long time. Additionally, I was extremely sensitive, making it difficult for me to overcome challenges (even now).
—Astrid Davila (at your service)
To be honest, I have many negative things to say about myself. It’s hard for me to find motivation to do things I need to do (my guess is that’s why I prefer working with others, as at least it’s not for my own sake).
I have been battling with low self-esteem, depression, and anxiety since I can remember (yes, I remember being a kid and being anxious and feeling broken).
Still, I have learned that life is beautiful, even if it hurts, and I am always trying to improve, bit by bit. I fight against anhedonia; I fight against my lack of motivation; I fight against my low self-esteem; I fight against the “shame” of walking differently, and I fight against my apathy so I can stay financially independent (it’s a goal of mine).
So, with all that said, I want my legacy to be that I’m a fighter, a survivor, and someone who tries even if most people won’t ever see it. I would love to help others become more resilient, manage the chaos of life, and become a better version of themselves without burning out.
Finally, this article was a bit too personal, and I’m not a fan of oversharing, but if even one person reads this and thinks, “I’m a fighter too,” it will be worth it. So, let me know, what do you want your legacy to be?
About the Author:
I’m Astrid, a biologist who made a career shift to become a virtual assistant and an accountability partner. My journey from the world of science to customer service and freelancing has given me a unique perspective on life, and I sometimes share it here on WordPress.
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